Syawal & Me – The Stained Glass

Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar ….. Allahuakbar walillah ilhamd!

Syawal 2008, tatkala takbir bergema untuk yang ke 46 kali dalam hidup ku, akan bergenang lah airmata ini bak aliran sungai di Jannah …. mengimbas kembali semua memori dan saat-saat nostalgia yang telah di episodkan dalam kehidupan ini.  Penyesalan? Kalau ada pun, mungkin hanya kerana telah pernah mengingkari segala yang sepatutnya dipatuhi – sebagai anak kepada kedua orang tua ku, sebagai isteri kepada bekas suami ku, sebagai ibu kepada anak-anak ku, sebagai kakak kepada adik-adik ku, sebagai kekasih kepada bekas kekasih ku, sebagai sahabat kepada semua rakan & taulan, and primarily, sebagai hamba kepada Pencipta ku.

This year, another quiet Syawal for me. Too quiet, I anticipate.  Qayyum wont be back and will remain in Bangkok.  Qahar has to accommodate to his duty shift.  Ex-hubby has requested to have Quddus, Qadir and Qabid for this year’s Syawal.  That leaves just me and my beautiful princess Siti Aisha …… my praises to Allah still.  Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar ….. Allahuakbar walillah ilhamd!

Beautifully broken comes from a song
images of a life full of things gone wrong

Broken implies something useless and old,
no longer wanted, tarnished and cold.

But that’s not the image of Mossavi that I see,
not the image of her she’s revealed to me.

Yes, I understand the pieces of pain,
senseless events with nothing to gain.

Every event that comes from her past
is just like a piece of crooked edged glass.

Each single piece could be happy or sad,
could mean something joyful or terribly bad.

But, each little piece is personally unique
like the marks that are found on a precious antique.

Breaks and marks that show she’s alive
from the good and bad things she had to survive.

So, like a window of beautiful stained glass
kaleidoscope colors reflecting her past.

The pieces all join in the image I see
of a sweet lovely woman so amazing to me.

Selamat Hari Raya Dib Mossavi, you stood strong then, and you will remain strong till the end ….. insha’allah🙂

3 Responses

  1. “Allah menurunkan musibah kerana dosa kamu yang lepas” – Dato’ Dr. Fadzilah Kamsah

  2. Salam Aunty Dib,

    Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir Batin

    Take care *hugs*

  3. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Temi, PokDeng …..

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